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today,,feels want to cry,,somehow,,feel kinda broken heart a little,,wat i saw today,,dat is so not funny,,
really2 touched deeply into my heart,,dat is so not nice,,
i might forgive u
but dat moment will stick forever in my memory,,together with juz a little piece of broken heart..

sex sex sex

this topic really interesting for me,,,about first time sex,,sound meaningful,,,hehe,,,
here,,got some info,,dat teenager like me shud b aware of,,,hehe...

Why do people always talk about condoms?

Because if you want to have sex with someone, they're important! Sex can be great, but there are risks involved. Aside from all the emotional issues, you can catchinfections, and a woman can become pregnant. If you don't want to end up in a STD clinic or with a baby, using a condom is a good idea. It won't be much fun either when you have to tell your partner or parent that you have a sexually transmitted disease or are pregnant.

What about when we haven't got a condom?

Then if you want to be safe, you'll have to get one. Some types of contraception (such as the pill) are more effective than condoms for avoiding pregnancy, but won't reduce your chances of contracting a sexually transmitted infection.

And if you're single, it doesn't hurt to carry condoms with you - just in case!

Doesn't that make me look 'easy'?

No - it makes you look like you're mature enough to look after yourself.

Oh, and it's okay to put a condom in your pocket or your wallet if you're going out for the night, but don't keep them in there for long - they'll go squidgy! Condoms need to be stored in a cool, dry place. They also have a sell-by date on the packet - don't use condoms that are too old.

You can't catch anything or get pregnant on your first time though, can you?

Actually, you can. It's scary enough having sex for the first time without having to worry about using condoms, too. But you do need to - if you're nervous about using condoms or if you don't want to seem inexperienced, practise with them in advance. A boy could try to put a condom on when he masturbates, to get used to what it feels like, and what to do with it when he finishes.

Okay. . . so where can I get some?

Buying condoms can seem frightening or embarrassing, especially for a young person, but it isn't really. You can get them in most pharmacies or drugstores and a lot of supermarkets sell them. In some countries such as the UK and parts of the USA young people are entitled to free contraceptive advice and contraceptives from their doctor. But you don't need a prescription to get them, and often health clinics, family planning centres, and even schools have supplies of free condoms for teenagers. In most places, you can buy condoms whatever your age.

If you're still too embarrassed to go and buy them, you can sometimes get them from vending machines (often in public toilets) or over the internet - see our help page.

But there's so many different kinds! Which ones are best?

There are a lot of different kinds of condoms, but don't worry. Here are the different types you can get:

• Material - Most condoms are made from latex or polyurethane. The latex ones are a little stronger, so they give slightly better protection from STDs and pregnancy. A very small amount of people are allergic to latex, though, so they use polyurethane ones.
• Size - Condoms come in lots of different sizes. You can get longer or shorter or wider or narrower ones. If a packet of condoms says 'large' or 'small', this is usually talking about the width of the condom, not the length. Be honest! A condom that is too big may come off, and a condom that's too small might break. Most condoms that you buy in shops and vending machines will be a standard size.
• Lubricated - Some condoms are not lubricated at all, some have silicone-based lubricants, some have water-based lubricants. Some condoms are lubricated with a spermicide (see below).
• Spermicidal - Some condoms have a spermicidal lubricant, which can help to reduce the likelihood of pregnancy. One of the most common spermicides is something called nonoxynol-9. This is a chemical that some people are sensitive to, and if it's used regularly it can can cause irritation and increase the chance of HIV infection. Condoms lubricated with Nonoxynol 9 should not be used for anal sex.
• Ribbed - These condoms have little ridges running around them. These can make sex more pleasurable for both partners, and if they're used correctly (see below) then they're just as safe as ordinary ones. Ribbed condoms are the answer for people who complain "But I can't feel anything if I put on a condom. . . "
• Coloured - The natural colour of latex is a creamy white, so lots of condoms have different colours - some of them even glow in the dark. Again, if they're used properly, they're fine.
• Flavoured - Some sexually transmitted infections can be passed on orally, so it's a good idea to put on a condom for oral sex. Sometimes, people don't like the smell and taste of latex, so they use flavoured condoms. These can taste of anything from strawberry to curry! Flavoured condoms shouldn't be used for vaginal or anal sex, though, unless they have the kite mark sign in the UK and Europe, or are FDA approved in the USA.
• Resevoir tipped - Most condoms have a reservoir tip to catch semen, some have a plain tip. If they have a reservoir tip, be sure to pinch the end when putting them on - if they have air inside them, they can break when you're having sex.

I'm still not sure...

If you're unsure about what to do it can help to talk things through with an adult, but sometimes this is not possible. Teens sometimes find it embarrassing talking to their parents about sex - you could try asking a teacher or a guidance councillor for advice and information, if you're more comfortable with that. The internet can also be a really good place to look for information and advice.

So how effective are condoms?

There's lots of myths about how effective condoms are. If they're used correctly, condoms are about 94% - 97% (depending on which study you look at) effective at preventing pregnancy and they're nearly 100% effective at preventing transmission of HIV. Some people say that certain viruses can 'pass through' latex - that's not true.

They won't help against crabs, though, and some sexually transmitted infections (like herpes) can be caught through oral sex with someone who is infected, so you need to use condoms for this, too.

Is it even safer wearing two condoms?

No! The friction of the condoms rubbing together would probably make them both break, and it wouldn't be very comfortable for the person wearing them. You also shouldn't use the male and female condoms together.

What is the female condom?

There is also a female condom, which is a type of pouch which fits inside the vagina. See our female condom page for more information.

How do I mention condoms without spoiling the moment?

"Everything's going great, the atmosphere's really romantic, and then you have to get a condom out. . . ."

“Putting a condom on can be quite sexy. ”

One of the main reasons that teens say they don't like using condoms is that they think condoms interrupt a passionate moment - and it's true that it can be difficult to find, open and unroll a condom in the dark when you've both got your minds on other things.

But it doesn't have to be difficult and it doesn't have to 'spoil the moment'.

The best way to make sure you can put a condom easily is to practise in advance . . . girls can practise on appropriately shaped vegetables. Then, when the time arrives to do it for real, you'll know what you're doing. Putting a condom on can be quite sexy. It doesn't have to be done by the person who is going to wear the condom - it can be quite an intimate thing for his partner to do.

Keep your condoms and some lube close by, then you won't have to get up, put the lights on, go into the bathroom and hunt around in the back of the cupboard!

What is 'lube'?

Lubricant or 'lube' is like a cream or jelly which is sometimes used to make sex go a little more smoothly. Quite often being tense or rushing things can make sex difficult or painful, so try to relax and take your time. You might also want to use extra lubrication. There are many different brands of lube, for example KY Jelly, ID Glide, Astroglide or Liquid Silk, which you can buy from supermarkets or drugstores. There are also different types, for example some lubes are designed specifically for anal sex. If you are using a condom then you must use a water-based lubricant like KY Jelly, and not an oil-based lubricant like Vaseline. Make sure the lubricant only goes on the outside of the condom - if any gets on the inside, the condom can slip off during sex.

Any tips for putting condoms on?

A video about contraception, including a demonstration of how to correctly put on a condom

Firstly, you should put the condom on before there's any contact between the penis and your partner's body. Fluids released from the penis even very early on in sex can cause pregnancy or transmit an STI.

So, when the penis is erect, open the condom wrapper. Don't do it with your teeth! This can cause tiny rips in the condom which you might not notice. Unroll the condom a little over the top of the penis - make sure that the roll is on the outside - if it's backwards then the condom won't unroll. If there's any air trapped in the condom, this can cause it to break, so make sure you pinch the end to squeeze any air out. Then just firmly roll the condom down as far as you can. If you want to use any lube, put it on the outside of the condom and make sure it's water-based lubricant. Oil based lubricants can weaken the condom and make it break.

What if it breaks?

If a condom breaks while you're having sex, then stop right away and put a new condom on. While you're having sex you can sometimes feel if a condom has broken, but not always, so you should check occasionally that it's okay. If you think some semen has escaped from the condom you might want to think about talking to your doctor about getting emergency contraception and an HIV/STD test.

Do I need to put on a condom for oral sex?

Yes. Some sexually transmitted diseases and infections (such as herpes) can be passed on by oral sex. When you use a condom for oral sex, you should change condoms before having vaginal or anal sex, because teeth may have made little holes in it.

What about anal sex?

Again, yes. Anal sex carries a high risk of STI transmission, because the lining of the anus is very delicate and easily damaged. Anal sex won't necessarily stop a woman getting pregnant either, as semen can escape from the anus and enter the vagina after sex. Anal sex can put more strain on a condom, so you can buy stronger ones if you wish, although standard ones should be just as effective if used correctly with plenty of lubricant. As mentioned above, it's better if the lubricant doesn't contain Nonoxynol 9, as this can increase the risk of HIV transmission by irritating the lining of the anus.

Okay, when do we stop?

After he has ejaculated, a man using a condom needs to stop and take the condom off. If you carry on having sex, it can burst. If you want to carry on, that's fine, just put a new condom on again, and away you go. Never re-use a condom.

When the man pulls his penis out, he should hold the base of the condom to make sure that comes out, too. And when taking a condom off, don't just pull on the end. Roll it back from the base and throw it away safely - you might want to tie a knot in the end to stop it leaking. Don't flush used condoms down the toilet, and don't leave it under the bed for your mum to find!

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My blog design was edited by my sayang,,HILLARY AVIN AYOM...:D
so cool yet simple,,,a little rock thre,,but got own romance,,haha,,dats my description lahh...sory baa,,,broken english,,,dont care,,nobody knows xcept him,,,:D...really thank to my syg,,coz i not know how to edit da html,,smthg might wrong wit my lappy,,,so i just let him edit my blog,,,:)...


so,,today story...


today,,we're shutdown again,,,(every teus n thurs)
so,,actually,,i dont know which group i shud join,,
then,,i follow my staff friend,,,magah,,stanley,,n steward...
in not a longer time,,,i saw uncle tony on the other side..
im somehow felt guilty for not joining him
coz i know dat he wud like if i come join him coz b4 tok nya mala ja embak ku,,,
so ,,i ask,,,who were in his team,,he said no one,,only uncle badin,,,
then,,to kill my guilty feeling,,i decided to join their group...3 person,,,
uncle tony,,uncle badin..n...me,,


so,,i help preparing the tools,,
we are gonna replace new pump..(dont know wat its call.)
the bolt n nut are big,,spanar size 30 n 32 was needed,,,
the rusty bolt mkes it more difficult to open,,,
so,,i juz let they do the hard job dat i cant handle...hehe
i sakit punggung la try to pull the spanar,,,
so saya mengalah jak lah,,


later,,,after finish pisahkan pump yg lama tu,,,we went rehat lahh,,
im going to kantin with amin,,ayak laut,,stanley ,,
i pesan roti kawin,,,mahal owh,,rm1 tuu,,
mun inti special bleh trima la,,tok,cam kdak kat umah ja,,,kaya wit planta,,,
huh,,,abis break,,terus ku tapau pke makan tghari,,,


pass tapau,,,return to rest room,,,simpan tapau,,n balik lagi to working location,,,
uncle badin dah awal2 dah kat sana handling forklift pke angkat pump tu masuk ke tmpatnya,,,
n bnjir la jadinya,,do no how..water from tank ya mcam ai pancut ja,,seronok jg tngok tu,,haha...
p uncle tony manages to cover the situation,,,so far so gud,,,


ckup jam makan,,,go makan lah,,,after makan,,msj my bf,,cannot miss tu,,,hehe,,rindu baa,,,
then go to tido..tido pon x lama,,,x selesa ngan overall ku ya,,


then tyme kaja lagi,,,buat2,,,habis,,,kul 3 rehat,,,ingatkan keja dah abis,,but still ada lg..
this tyme kat tmpat yg ala2 sauna,,,really hot...haha,,
replace pump jg,,kali ni pump hydraulic,,,
a little dark,,pke spotlght n torchlght ja,,
hurmm,,not much job i can do,,only go store,,ambik necessary tool ja,,,


haha,,,uncle badin gve me chance just reverse the forklift only,,hehe
sekejap ja,,,hehe..
then dekat kol 5,,abis keja,,so saya balik,,
but uncle tony n badin still hve plenty work to do,,they mght finish around 10pm,,


hehe,,my sayang so mangah,,:D
he call me,,when im just finish washed my face,,i hurry2 angkat call dia,,takut dia pkir lain,,kan jam ya nang waktu balik dah,,,hehe,,,when im in da car...saya msj my sayang lahh,,,:D
so cute la dia,,,arrghh,,geram mai ngau sayang,,,
miss him a lottt~!!!!!


here,,i show todays pic,,


 

Cobus - Lit - My Own Worst Enemy (Drum Cover)

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orait,,,,many times sudah tadi,,ku try edit this blog design,,
a bit x mnjadi...hurm,,
dont care la,,sudah ngantuk dah nie,,

today story~~

urm,,got trouble at kilang,,,
a machine,,known as ADI screw drainer,,bocor tadi..
hah,,,know whre da place haa~~
nunnn kat langit atas ya,,,how many tingkat i dun count la,,
enuf to make me seput2 naik atas,,,
gila betull,,,bnyak kali naik turun,,turun naik tangga ya,,giler..
dahla steward xda nolong tyme ya,,just me n amin...
amin pon got his own job,,
n i prepare tools yg akan diguna,,
cth,,weldg set,,extension wire,,grinder,,cutting disc,,hammer,,kain lap,,torchlght,,spanar....
dats was so not light...

haha,,,neway,,i manages to bring dat all,,n still able to stand,,,
dat place was so hot..
coz the machine pakai steam,,,
wawawa,,,the banjir n kotoran tu,,urm melekat ba bju,,,
so tired,,,no rest n break,,,
if not,,keja not finish lorr,,
i think..bout 3pm,,bru g makan..
dat tyme tulang dah brasai getar2...
semadi jak mujuk amin teman mkan kat kntin,,
ngegeh da ja nya mbak bekal,,

after ate,,can see clearly my belly mengentung,,hehe,,
so,,im rest,,,juz looking2 wat other people doing,,
pasya,,listen to ayak alfred tought bout education,,
he told me bout,,filipin n thailand women can weld perfectly juz like man,,
im so high,,,dats mke me inspired more,,,so cool bah,,not to mention da salary...
gilaa,,,i think im crazy sudah...i had feeling n strong intension to deeply learn more to welding n lathe,,
im not gud enuf,,but skill can b train continueosly,,,n never failed to show improvement,,

ok,,,later,,ckup jam,,5.00...i balik lah...ambik key,,sat in the car,,,msej with my sayang,,:D
miss him a lot,,cant wait ti c him,,,
im jealous larr,,,
my staff friend called stanley,,,
his gf came to bntulu,,try to find job here..
n she living with him,,at his parent house.
so cool owh,,.his parent r open n accept their relationship...

oh my,,,cant wait the moment whre my family gonna be close to my syg's family..
hehe,,,my syg so sot,,,
talking to me like pondan,,,hahakks :D
i felt want to karate him..
i can imagine he bcome a pondan,,haha,,so freaking out,,
i cant wait to touch him n kiss his lips,,,:)..
really want to deliver my love to him <3

hihi,,

yerr~~~blogging again this evening,,,
for wat..?
haha,,juz wanna share my blog link to my bf lorr,,,
hehe,,,malu ler i,,
wawawa,,,wateva,,bukan ada follower pon,,haha..
jaku kedirik ja ba dtok,,dadak mat gak asai,,,
hurm,,today shutdwn,,felt tired,,,
huh,,ritok dapat scar lagikk,,
melecur kat lengan,,nsib baek,,sikit jak,,,
huh,,,gine mok ikot ratu cantek tok,,,huh...
ya pon gara2 terkena spotlight pke tinjau tmpat gelap ya,,,yg anywhre can bring tu bah,,
panas juwa minatang ya,,,
n,,,wat i cant forget today dats is...
ku nang asa down lah tadi,,coz telah membuat cutter mpun mata ya,,patah,,,
rushing gilak motong besi ya,,ku nekan kuat2...
haha,,,
neway,,not my false,,
p asa bsalah la jwa,,,
p dah ok dah my heart,,,
ada geng2 yg gud2,,,even they r older,,,
not to forget,,my bf,,,si itam tu..:D  
wat he doing today,,owh,,,
hope he would not forget to study,,
worrying bout him,,,
he 's my beloved one bahh...<3...

EHEM..

Wahhhh,,,dah dekat mok abis LI dah nie,,,3 more week saja lg nie,,,uhuu,,,report blom start lg nie,,aiyoyo,,hurmm..after skian lama,,,today blogging lgk,,,ckap lak sal kejelesan,,
am i...
kuat jeles..?
yes,,i am...
y..??
dono,,in fact,,i dont want to..
haha,,tu yg sya pkir...
y la sya jeles bila my bf talk or tell me bout other girl..
so,,,bila saya slow2 pkir kan,,
ive found out dat saya jeles bukan nya sya tidak percaya kalo bf syg betul2 sayang sama sya sorang ja,,,
duhalll....saya jeles coz i cant be aroung him like the other girl does...
yer larr,,,sapa sik jeles,,huh,,,apalagi dia my first love,,,
cibeyy alu,,,huh,,,ku nang seriously,,dont like n dont want to b jeles,,,
jeless nie,,,sgt mnyakitkan aty,,,
kdg2 bleh kasi ai mata kuar slowly tau,,,
pa kahh,,,
wat cant i say anymore,,,,
i love him soo much..
BUTTT..saya tau lah skrg saya no need khusyuk sgt psl jeles tu skrg,,,
saya harus pay more attention to my final li report,,,
bru muka depan saja yg sudah siap...
walao betull,,,huh,,,
and,,yg saya anggap penting juga is...bout my bf final exam soon,,
sya rasa risau tau,,,if my bf ptus asa,,or cant balanced his time properly,,
urm,,i wish i can b thre wit him,,
i want to courage him,,,but kadang2 sya rasa sya punya nasihat tu,,makin bikin dia stress saja..
saya tak tau la how jadi gf yg tahu cara relaxing mind,,bf punya mentality,,
sbb sya tauk bah,,msti dia sdg stress kenak final exam nie,,,
owh,,,GOD,,PLEASE BE WITH HIM ALL THE TYME,,,,AMEN..